Should I stay or should I go?

When I arrived in Israel in late August, I did so with an open mind: I didn’t have a clue whether I’d stay past the program end in January. I told myself that I’d go with the flow and give myself time to make up my mind. The goal, ultimately, was to make this decision by the end of December, so that if I decided to return to the U.S. I could begin my job search (and, conversely, if I were to stay in Israel, start finding a job/housing here).

Now, It’s the second week of December, and I don’t feel any closer to a decision than I did before. I had days when I was sure I would stay, and days that I’ve wanted nothing more than to return home in 2017.

I’ve tried pro/con lists, which have helped to an extent, but have certainly not been definitive. Below I’ll share some of my reasons – just a few of the selected, more publicly-appropriate ones, of course. Over the next few weeks I’ll be doing some serious soul-searching to hopefully come to a decision.

PRO: STAY IN ISRAEL!

• More time to explore Tel Aviv and the whole of Israel
• Easier (and cheaper) to travel to other European countries
• It’s an adventure
• Learning opportunities
• Pushing myself out of my comfort zone
• I don’t have to figure out a new job and new city back in the U.S.
• No need for a car
• I really love this city.
• The Mediterranean and the beach

• The weather (and not returning to the U.S. in the dead of winter)

CON: GO BACK TO THE US!

• If I stay, I need to put in a lot more effort to learn Hebrew. If I go home, it’s back to my first language.
• I really miss my friends and family – and my cat, Leinie.

Look at that cat. How could you not miss him??

• The eight-hour time difference makes it hard to stay connected to those back home.
• I’d surely make more money.
• Cost of living in Tel Aviv is really high – groceries, bills, especially housing
• Summer in Israel is brutal.
• Living in the U.S. is just EASIER. It’s easier to do things like go to a clinic, deal with customer service representatives and get things fixed (like my phone, which is barely functioning) – and not just because of the language barrier.
• I could afford to join a gym and start working out again. I’d probably eat more healthily, too (probably… not definitely).
• A majority of the people I know here are on this program and leaving at the end of January. That said, I’m pushing myself this next month to get to more events and meet more people, especially Israelis.

Advice? I’ll take it. Affordable apartments in Tel Aviv? Any jobs back in the U.S. that would tempt me to come back even more? Oh, I’ll definitely take those.